end of the menstrual cycle mood
today i could barely even summon the energy to draw this picture. i’m noticing how it feels in stark contrast to last week— when i wrote those long posts on artist-entrepreneur, as though i was possessed. today/this week i can barely remember what i wrote, and now i mostly feel like floating in a tub of dark water, listening to whale songs, and experiencing a no-dream kind of sleep.
my end of the menstrual cycle days are characterized by —
staring into the void
feeling like the living dead
general amnesia and life disorientation
breasts feel like water balloons of increasing weight in water
vague unidentifiable discomforts
mind is easily sticky and dangerously spirally
today i was doing a bit of research on the menstrual cycle as it relates to creativity and energy — and found this lovely, beautiful article, which linked me to the website of this period coach. i can’t believe i’ve had a period for so long without actively experimenting with — and truly honoring — how i can be more in “sync” with it.
mostly, i think the conception of having a period has felt like a nuisance in a linear/masculine dominated world. it’s frustrating to be like… wait… I just went from 100mph to 10mph… what’s wrong with me?!? deconditioning from all of that is a lot of work, but i think i’m ready to begin, now — at least the process of experimentation and discovery.
how would i feel if i lived more in alignment with my cycle?
in what ways can this alignment help me embody myself?
this is the question i’m putting out there.
related: PMS feels like this