istanbul life notes no. 9 | fragments of spring
golden hour shadows in my room
istanbul life notes no. 9
this spring i started to grow an olive tree, and two mini-rose plants on my windowsill, along with cactuses, which never cease to amaze me because they reproduce ENTIRE SELVES off of one fragment of themselves. this is asexual reproduction?!? how efficient, how resourceful, how magical - that an arm of me could create another whole body. (if i had infinite arms to spare, how would i live my life differently? i would plant myself everywhere).
i have been feeling myopic - or i could say, focused - a bit overwhelmed by this spring energy, which is everything happening all at once, wanting everything to happen NOW, and feeling late before I even begin.
thinking about the tenderness of handpeeled grapefruit.
some recent life news
01 | i bought a plane ticket to NYC for may 31st.
02 | i’m redesigning this place! gathering notes for a sprint sometime soon.
03 | i’m building out an ecosystem for house on the webs.
04 | i did my taxes while thinking hard about money & art, discovering some revelations
05 | a friend is coming to visit me.
i am thinking about: how easy it is to forget oneself, unless you take the time and make the effort to witness your own life - like watching a movie and writing about it - too. how simpler life would be if i could live it without thinking too much; watch the days float by like helium balloons, or clouds, or birds. some days i come to my senses and remember how alone i am - in my head - and this at times is very lonely, and simultaneously the most beautiful feeling.