berlin summer diaries
ongoing visual diaries of this berlin summer —
witness to the fullness of life that i lived
july 13: biked to plötzensee lake again, only a little lost, soaked in water & blue dragonflies dancing on the surface. biked home soaked in sweat, cooked chicken adobo for dinner and smoked enough to laugh together all night
july 12 - bought cbd oil and dosed myself, walked along the spree & finished a book by the water, home to severe anxiety & hammock at 2am like a cocoon, chinese rice balls as snack
july 11: searched for myself on the damp grass of Tiergarten, stopped at a biergarten on the way home and got totally drunk alone, laid on the grass & painted my nails green while watching young men play soccer
july 8: woke up at 11. felt slow and sluggish all day. did almost nothing except walk through Tempelhofer Feld at golden hour with my hazel-eyed lover, who saw this wildflower.
july 6: feeling apocalypse-grade anxiety. biked 12 miles to Plötzensee lake, where i floated in the lake for 45 min - as though it were a bathtub. feeling soothed and silence in my head at last. old german men butt naked. almost died biking up a giant hill home.
july 5: cooked dinner without oil. biked to Hellwig to buy plants for the “home for now,” then carried a backpack of them to Tempelhofer Feld, where giant insects chased me. drank wine in the hammock, with candles. couldn’t sleep.
july 4: collected wildflowers from tempelhofer feld, ate gnocchi & drank campari from an italian restaurant. disappeared into the light & dark of the holocaust memorial, wandered through Tiergarten at golden hour. danced tango until late